Typically every morning starts the same. The alarm goes off, I hit snooze, when the “Wakey Wakey” alarm goes off I get out of bed and head to the kids bedroom. While I turn on a dimmed light I repeat, “good morning, sunshine’s, how did you sleep“ until they say good morning back. Usually I play with their hair or scratch their back and occasionally if they are really tired I bust out the tickle fingers to get them up. I get their breakfast order and let the big one stay in his bed and force the little one to snooze on the couch while their breakfast is cooking.
Once the breakfast is done I tell them no less than 10 times everyday that breakfast is ready and my sleepy zombies eventually make it to the table with their eyes closed. The little one always needs his chair pushed in and the big one always needs something to drink. Once that’s done I read what’s on the lunch menu. The little one ALWAYS takes a cold lunch. His first day of KinderPrep he had school lunch once and has refused it Every. Single. Day. Since. The bigger one goes back and forth depending on the menu.
Before I start the lunches, I start my Mr. Coffee machine. However, yesterday, In the midst of the morning routine I noticed that I didn’t have any coffee grounds left.
Damn.
I just went to the store yesterday AND the day before… how does this happen?!
So I ask my men, “why is it I can remember everything you guys need and want but I always forget about myself?”
They tiredly shrugged their shoulders and moved about their day.
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I’m trying to get to more yoga classes and really focus on moving 20+ minutes a day minimum. Yesterday to meet the goal, I took a yoga class from one of my favorite instructors. I work in such a social environment I like to hide in corners in other places, I’m trying to work on that.
The class was exactly what I needed to nurse my shoulder back to health. As we settled into Savasana the instructor came over, placed her hands on my shoulders gently pressing them into the Earth, gave me a temple massage as she whispered, “you do so much for others, make sure to take care of yourself”.
I couldn’t help the tear that escaped. Wasn’t that exactly the thing I brought up to my little men in the morning?
Unfortunately with me, it doesn’t stop at forgetting the coffee grounds, I over commit, I’m a yes-er when I mean to be a no-er, I often have too much on the plate and not enough room to squeeze it in.
IF you haven’t already come to this conclusion, I’ll spell it out (LOL) I do things I don’t really want to do and I put the stuff (like blogging) on hold because I’m too busy doing the other stuff. It’s exhausting. When I promise myself I’ll get better, I don’t, so if you have advice I’d love to hear it.
Messages have a way of standing out when you need to hear them. Apparently this one is loud and clear.
Namaste,
Jes xoxo